Peeing on a Stick

My legs are crawling, I have an intense migraine, I can barely concentrate long enough to  tell you my name and I am peeing on a stick. The beauty and joy of the first term, the magic of pregnancy? Not really.

I am withdrawing from a opiate medication several times stronger that Morphine. It’s week three and Christmas Eve. I’ve ask Santa to bring me relief. It seems he’s brought me something else. The faintest blue line. My second child is quietly waging this war with me.

It’s not a surprise. I ovulated on the first day of Hanukkah and I swore I could feel the sperm hit the egg. Maybe the blessing in the last 4 years of pain has been this awareness of all things moving in my body, this awareness of a gift I never thought I’d receive.


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  1. […] rehash the details here, if you are new to my blog, please check out the early story starting here. However, I never mentioned that the first Doctor I discussed my potential pregnancy with told me […]


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